the vicious cycle is indeed back. and as usual, i'm the one's suffering. BUT i'm NOT giving in. anymore.

i seek comfort and solace by prayers. family. girlfriends. listening to my favourite tunes. perhaps blogging too.

had a good chat with lessie yesterday, after so long. i dunno why, but we will always be destined to row the same boat. like everytime. can't wait for next week. you, me, and a chill-out place. and a day out with hudz too.

sometimes i wonder why i'm made to go through all this. maybe because of the sins i've done, be it small or big. maybe it's just me. or him. i have no idea. things just doesn't fall into place, where and what i wanted it to be, anymore.

i no more cry in my sleep. i no more cry when i'm listening to the jiwang tunes. i no more cry thinking about it. coz i'm saving my tears for something else worthy. call me cruel, heartless, or whatever. coz you'll know better if you're in my shoes. it's depressing to know you're not being appreciated.

i shall do what i have and need to do. coz i'm done and over with all this shit.

some of you might be laughing right now. i do not care. laugh all you want. laugh hard. just laugh.

coz i'm NUMBed.