27th August 2006
was a very memorable dae
thx 2 DAT person
whom i thot
with a higher hierarchy
with more experiences
working with more professionalism
wud do wat a professional nurse do

but i thot WRONG
wat she did to me was
TOTALLY HUMILLIATING
TOTALLY HURTFUL
i dunno where 2 hide my face dat time
i juz broke down there n then
i cudn't accept e fact dat she did DAT
SHE lowered my SELF-ESTEEM
i dun wanna mention HER name in here
coz it's NOT worth it
& i LACK RESPECT for her
SHE dun DESERVE THE RESPECT
FAT HOPE LAH WOMAN
talking abt RESPECT
haaaiiizzzz
*welcome to e working life, Nurul*

but with ppl ard
whom are so comforting
i picked up slowly
dried my tears
& move on
i had to
i WON'T let HER
DESTROY & CONTROL MY LIFE
NEVER, u BITCH!

thx a million to these ppl
* SSN LIANG
* SN HANIS FARHANA
* ABEE
* EN NORSYAHIDA
* EN IRNAWATI- u're ALWAYS remembered sis..
* MY PATIENT
i'm so blessed to hev these ppl ard
i dunno wat i'll do w/out them
SHE'LL get a taste of her OWN MEDS
sooner or later
wat goes ard, comes ard
patience is virtue....

28th AUGUST 2006
e dae i turn a very ripe age of 24
old enuff 2 hev kids lah dey
BUT
i DON'T look 24 hokay...
heehee

aniwaes got my bdae prezzie in advance
from my dearest & bestest ayah


:: What i've ALWAYS wanted.. thx ayah! luv u.. ::

and tis...



:: a white clutch bag frm abg & kak idah.. tq darls! ::

must be wondering wat i got from abee?
he gave me e prezzies way in advance
e ones he bought frm Germany?
yeah..
& e most PRECIOUS one of 'em all
will be e constant AFFECTION from him
i cudn't ask for more
i'm e most happiest person wheneva i'm wit him
i can't do this thing called life
w/out him here with me
i LOVE u abee

thx 4 e endless wishes
be it by SMSes or phonecalls
it's e thought dat counts
appreciate it..

oh 4got 2 thank DAT woman
4 DAT unforgettable 'present' ytd
so classic
FUCK OFF lah

HAPPY BDAE NURUL

harlow peeps
i hev been neglecting abandoning - to be precise
my blog
juz dun hev e mood 2 update lately
even if i hev e mood
i'll be at werk or juz outside
there's so much to blog when i'm out
but when i'm at hm
one look at e com makes me feel more lazy
to run my fingers thru e keyboard

a series of events had juz happened

EVENT # 1

HAPPY BELATED ANNIVERSARY
2 ABEE & ME of course...

EVENT # 2

HAPPY ENGAGEMENT
2 ABANG & KAK IDAH
semoga berkekalan hingga ke jinjang pelamin
InsyaAllah
cepat skit, org pun nak kawin..
herkz!

EVENT # 3

HAPPY ENGAGEMENT
2 DIANA & SHAHRIL
semoga kekal jugak ye..

EVENT # 4

WORK WORK WORK
SLOG SLOG SLOG
to date, 6 ppl hev given me comments
dat i lost weight
*abee's mum
*PCA aneeta
*ITE student jai
*EN nur'ain
*EN nisa
*my dearest abee

yes, i've lost weight
since i've started working
i've lost 2kg
but i feel lethargic
tink i nid doses of Vitamin Cs
STAT!
hahaha...

sya has been under stress lately
& i've been her channel to vent out her anger
& i'm fine with it
in fact i'm happy 2 be her 'consultant'
it's gd 2 be sumone's listening ear
dun worry sis
no matter hw much u complain
abt tis & dat
i still LURVE u hokay!

nisa has been a happy gerl
she has got over with her probs
i'm her channel 4 advice
e IT session juz now was crazy!
me & her juz can't stop laughing!
hope e session tadi has made her dae
i LURVE u nisa...

frens
cherish them while u can...

i'm so frustrated
abg's engagement is tis sat
& i hev 2 werk afternoon
thx 2 rashid
who didn't wanna exchange
his DO with me
it's juz so effing frustrating lah

mama keep asking if cud change shift
with another colleague
bole tu mmg bole
but e ones who work morn
had plans already lah
aniwaes who's willing to change 2 afternoon
on a SATURDAY summore
darn

i juz had 2 feel nabey-ish now
basketball betol

i juz hope a teeny-weeny miracle
happens on friday

i'm stronger than yesterday
i'm able to cope & perform better
ALHAMDULILLAH

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audit yesterday was so 'kecoh'

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was begging my dear rashid
to swap our OFFs
he got his OFF nxt sat
& my OFF is nxt thurs
i NEED e SAT OFF
my bro's getting engaged
& dat day i hev 2 work afternoon sia
pls RASHID pls
kesiankanlah hamba Allah nie
i'll treat u ok???
or i'll help u in ur rm ok???
or i'll call u abg rashid ok???
or i'll call u hensem ok???
or nxt time if u want my sat i'll give u ok???
provided i've got nothing on ar...
puhleeeeeezeeeee....

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i'm OFF todae
yup agn
gonna fetch mama ltr
n go MAKAN @ our usual plc
with my bibik of coz
tmr juli's & bibik's bdae
& i'm on afternoon
darn...

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hw wud u feel
if ppl ard u
keeps pushing & shoving u ard

hw wud u feel
wen a person
makes a fuss over
over a small mistake u've done

a mistake dat u're not
even sure if it's UR mistake

instructions given....
hmmmm..
NOT CLEAR

hw am i suppose 2 noe
wen u tell me "they went for dialysis"
period

at e back of my mind
i juz nid 2 put their meals back
and a porter wud juz come & fetch their meals
to e dialysis centre
so i did wat i did
& i didn't noe it's a mistake
coz no one told me so

& wen it's time 4 passing of reports
she made a fuss out of it
ef her ah

she cud hev said
"nurul, can fax porter?"
instead of
"they went for dialysis"
like duuuuh
i noe lah they went for dialysis
like irna said,"ASS WIPE LAH!''
& sya said,"WAH LAU EEEEHHH!!!"
damn it!

i'm neither complaining abt my workload
nor i've probs working wit e staffs
but pls lah
u hev only 1 pathetic junior
& u, siting wit ur legs & arms crossed
& for god's sake
it's MORNING SHIFT sia

& rushing me into doing this & that
is juz a TURN-OFF

i juz cudn't take it no more
hid myself in staff toilet
& i literally cried
u may think i'm sissy
u may say,"alah nurul, baru kene mcm gitu.. dah nak nangis.."
try putting urself in my shoes
& u'll noe why
felt a lot better after i've 'let it out'
kept myself calm & collected
b4 entering e ward agn
& finish wat i need 2 finish
& i'm done 4 e day
ALHAMDULILLAH

i dun mind not going 4 my breaks
i dun mind e pile of tasks i need 2 finish
i dun mind dealing wit difficult patients
but pls..
be a lil considerate, can???
be more initiative, can???

but at e end of e dae
i still LOVE wat i'm doing
i still LOVE being an EN
i still LOVE my patients

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thanx abee
for always being there for me
tho u're at werk doing ur patrol
& me calling u while u're at it
LOVE U...

thanx mama
for making dat funny faces
& making corny but funny comments
while i'm telling u my story
dat window-shopping therapy
really helps me
LOVE U...

thanx sya
for lending me ur listening ear
& e sharing session we've had
on our way 2 outram mrt
makes me feel better
LOVE U...

thanx irna
for missing me
hehehe
LOVE U...

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HAPPY NURSE'S DAY
to all e nurses ard e world

& i'm off day 2day
*rejuvenating*