Linger...

Monday, October 31, 2005,

without any last words

he bidded his farewell with his tears

received a phonecall from my elder cuzzie sis

yesterday @ 1945hrs

atok has passed away

it was heart-wrenching

looking at atok's helpless body on his deathbed

lying towards the direction of the kiblat

covered up with a kain batik

Bismillah Hirrohman Nirrohim

i slipped open the batik from his face

n kissed his forehead

i covered back n said my Fatehah for him

his face still lingers in my mind till now

his jaundiced-turned-pale body

all cold

Subbhanallah

he's been suffering since the 'death sentence'

it all started with a cancerous tumor on his right cheek

went for op but it reoccurred

went for another op

but e cancer cells were multiplying v fast tis time

then he got sarcoma

meaning dat e cancer has invaded his bones

then it all started 2 go bad

atok's vision deteriorated

he's got dysphagia n not eating v well

he's all weak n needed assisting with his ADLs

his weight loss were so sudden

he's left with only bones n skin

then e bombshell dropped

doctor said he's got less than 3 mths 2 live

dat was like 2 wks ago wen i received e news

i got all worried

WE all got worried

but i'm glad dat he's resting in peace now

he's been suffering so much

e chemotherapy n drugs

it was a painful ordeal for atok

i simply dunno hw he felt

but being an oncology student

i know wat he went thru

it was really painful

and Allah decided 2 take him frm us yesterday

Allah loves him more

we will meet agn

only time will tell

semoga atok ditempatkan dengan org2 yg beriman

AMIN

11:01 PM